It has been a while since I have written anything. That’s because I feel I have nothing to say. I feel lost. The life that I had so painstaking built for myself feels like a hazy memory. I don’t know who I am or where I fit in any more.
Moving back home was supposed to make it easier. I’m not the same girl, though. I can’t just go back to my old life and pretend that everything will be ok. At the same time, I have no idea what I want from this new start either! I know I should look for a job and start to get my life back on track, but, I’m paralyzed but indecision. I know I have the qualifications and can do really well,however, I’m not able to silence that little niggling voice which says I won’t be able to handle it.I wanted to take some time off any travel but haven’t made any plans for that either.
Everyone around me is doing something to move on with their life. I just vegetate at home most of the time. I’m definitely the outlier in my immediate circle